I did it this morning. I knew it was not the right thing to do and I was in no condition to involve myself in this type of activity.
But, I pushed past the cries for me to stop and continued heading down a road that only leads to painful realization. I couldn't stop the ride to get off, as I did it again, a very dangerous thing; I looked into the mirror.
When I say I looked into the mirror, I mean I really looked into the mirror.
At first it was an everyday glance. But then, I was stopped in my tracks and I just stared.
"What happened to you," I asked myself.
My six-pack at sixteen had been traded in for a Michelin tire. Furniture had set in. My chest had now fallen into my drawers. I leaned forward and pulled the hairline back. Can I just say, "Big mistake." Some things have definitely changed. Some changes I have control over, and others I do not.
A look in the mirror is sometimes a painful experience, but it can also be helpful. I can plainly see things that I can change. With that in mind, I can make a plan and take the appropriate steps. On the other hand, it is evident that I am getting older. I know I cannot control the aging process.
Many of us are resolving that 2007 will be radically different than 2006. It is important to realize that a "fresh start" has everything to do with working on what we control.
If your goal is a deeper walk with Christ, that is controllable. I want to encourage you to use the available resources. If you are on the ground floor of developing a relationship with God, then find people who know him and ask questions.
If your walk with Christ needs reviving and you have a Bible on your self, start reading in the book of John.
I also highly recommend a book that 20 percent of Americans have also read, called "Purpose Driven Life." It will help you begin a daily process of getting to know God.
There is also a ton of great Web resources available, but for those who are just starting out I recommend, www.growinginginchrist.com.
I am not suggesting that you do all of these things at once. I am suggesting that you look at what you can do and begin a process that will change you from the inside out.
If you are one of those frustrated souls whose goal is to whip someone else into shape, or work to "save" your neighbor, that is noble, but not controllable. Truth be known, it is not even your job.
Can I suggest that you allow God to change you first? Our task is to live a life that represents an active impacting relationship with God. It is not our job to change the world. We are tools, which God uses. Let's leave the uncontrollable up to God. Let's be the first one to change, so we can be a reflection of God's grace and love to others.
I want to leave you with one last thought. When you look at a mirror, your angle determines what you see reflected back to you. You may look at your life in the mirror and see a picture that does not completely please you, but others often see what you may have missed.
"We, who with unveiled faces all reflect the Lord's glory, are being transformed into his likeness, with ever increasing glory, which comes from the Lord, who is the Spirit." 2 Corinthian 3:18.
People often times don't see you as you see yourself. If you're a Christ follower, they most likely see Him in your journey. God has begun good work in you, and he is faithful to complete it.
Ephesians 2:10 said we are God's workmanship or art, and God is an artist who finishes his work. Embrace the journey.
Gordon Mularski is senior pastor of Treasure Coast Community Church, which meets on Sundays at 10 a.m. in the Jensen Beach High School Performing Arts Center, located at 2875 N.W. Goldenrod Road, in Jensen Beach.
For information, visit the Web site, www.TC3.org, or call (772) 334-3999.